full time sorehead

Sunday, August 08, 2004

three days of working at coffee bean was a hell lot of hard work for me. was really clumsy. was at nge ann watching some gig yesterday. had to give it a miss cause of someone. what a waste. perhaps i shouldnt have cared your presence. why did i bother? i felt stupid and i was at a losing end. im such a corward to hide from you.

pangg @ 3:42 AM

Thursday, August 05, 2004

sometimes you make me happy, sometimes you make me feel miserable. sometimes maybe i think too much. maybe i place too much high hopes in you. i don't wanna rake up the past. it suck balls. Life can't get more horrible. The feeling was excruciating with you going on being so cold towards me and not realising your actions are rubbing salt in a wound. its rotten fancying boys. its rotten being a teenager. its rotten being me. you didn't make me feel reassured. it is prolonging the agony i was going through in my head. im having a sorehead. the warm glow that had been surrounding me suddenly evaporated and was replaced by a cold feeling of DOOM. but now, with each day that has passed, i've realised how much more is out there. the world is only as big as you'll let it be. ive gotta keep going.

pangg @ 4:32 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

muffins and french loaves. i wonder how are they coming along. you MORON. haha.
take care everyone. im off to make sticky muffins.

pangg @ 8:55 PM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

im a mutt.
my dad always pisses me off with those nasty words.
doesn't he spare a thought for my feelings at all?
why should i respect you when i don't deserve it?
i don't live in this world to make it worthy.
i am curious with life so im doing things to make my life worthy.

haha i wonder at times how is IT'S cleavage coming along. dont adjust too much in public okay?

pangg @ 2:38 PM

Thursday, July 22, 2004

broken glasses everywhere
people pissing on the stairs
you know they just don't care
i can't take the smell, can't take the noise
got no money to move out,
i guess i don't have a choice
don't push me cause i'm close to the edge
i'm trying not to lose my head.

you are paranoid
and i'm an idoit
to be listening to you always and
never be serious

if you're going down
dont bring me along with you
just cause i am nice doesnt mean
i will always compromise

you suck and so do your thoughts
so just get lost and just make up with
whoever you fought with.

haha. thanks to sheila for that wonderful poem.
she can be a songwriter like mike in future whoever, chester also.
guys are jerks.
dont deny it.
you know it.
you know you're good looking.
and you will have fucking much pride in you.
it could fill up the size of my butt and yours.
or maybe a sumo wrestlers one.
get that fucking pride out of you.
if not you'll never gain anything.
you shithead.

pangg @ 10:56 AM

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

i want a pair of vans. the checkered one. that shoe is an HOT object okay. i'm not trying to be a poser or anything but i fancy that shoe.
imperfect mofo.

pangg @ 12:05 AM

Monday, June 07, 2004

argh. my muscles are aching. my torso, my legs, my right hand. whats with them? perhaps because i haven't been working out lately. and all of a sudden, i worked out yest. now, i'm too lazy to go anywhere. and i don't know whether i'm hungry. i can't feel a thing in my tummy. it feels as if it ached until it went numb. my right hand is aching more from all the typing. i realised. i'm always giving excuses so that i don't have to blog anymore. but i'm gonna continue blogging and make it long. feazah did you see that? LONG. haha. faezah, she's going for linkin park gig. so is sheila. they both bought the tickets at cisco on a tuesday. the 1st june. obviously, feazah is going with sheila. faezah can never fail to cheer me up with her lame jokes. what else is there about her i don't know? she claims i'm blur. i have to agree with her for that. i'm blur. faezah, this's like a testimonial.

pangg @ 11:23 AM

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imperfect mofo
my brain is stewing
natural bent towards rebellion
the pain & joy of being a teenager
set it to a breakneck beat
edison chen is cute.infact VERY cute.